You wanted honesty? Well I'll be frank…
When someone asks someone who is overweight, what is the worst part of being fat? (There I said the F Word!) Mostly one would think the answer is - not being mobile, fear for your health etc etc. While these are also true the biggest thing that has bugged me are the logistical set backs.
The list is quite long, and these are things that many 'normal' people take for granted such as being able to sit on any chair you choose without being worried about breaking it or being able to fasten a seatbelt without having to nearly crush your ribs. There's more, but I'm sure you don't want the whole list. I can just honestly say that I have a phobia of chairs with arms!! I will never forget the time I tried to sit down and then had to stand up again because I couldn't fit. There was this time where I'd gone with my sister and a friend to a MacDonalds, and I tried to slide into a booth, nearly dislodging it. I ended up sitting alone in the car. Like when I'm sitting on the rowing machine I have to really reach before I can grab the handles. Have you ever tried grabbing something while you have an inflated tube around you (I'm thinking of times when I've been in the pool - obviously very long ago). Well that's how it feels. A big one for me is transport - buses, trains, planes. I'm always worried about whether or not the handles can move, if someone is sitting next to me, an more… This is one of the reasons I've not been able to fly home for so long. A 15 hour flight would be excruciating, not to mention dangerous!!
These always bugs you and niggle in the back of your mind. But sadly you get used to it. Which is ridiculous! I have heard many times that our choices are always driven by Pain or Pleasure, generally in that particular moment. I've subconsciously CHOSEN to be fat, which makes you ask the question… If being overweight is the better choice out of 2 options, how bad can the 'pain' be that lurks behind it? Again it's probably subconscious. The only thing I can think of is an enormous fear of being hurt or judged, so the weight has come on as an excuse not to interact with people. This boils down to lack of self worth which robs you of your confidence.
I hope I haven't been too honest and scared y'all off! But I'm an open book anyway… Besides, this is no time for holding back. It's all or nothing! There are things that need fixing and by golly, this time I'm going to fix this and start LIVING!
After that rather serious entry, here's a video that illustrates my point VERY effectively, but I'm sure it'll lighten the mood! Enjoy x
#DwindlingDeeva
www.facebook.com/DwindlingDeevaDiary
When someone asks someone who is overweight, what is the worst part of being fat? (There I said the F Word!) Mostly one would think the answer is - not being mobile, fear for your health etc etc. While these are also true the biggest thing that has bugged me are the logistical set backs.
The list is quite long, and these are things that many 'normal' people take for granted such as being able to sit on any chair you choose without being worried about breaking it or being able to fasten a seatbelt without having to nearly crush your ribs. There's more, but I'm sure you don't want the whole list. I can just honestly say that I have a phobia of chairs with arms!! I will never forget the time I tried to sit down and then had to stand up again because I couldn't fit. There was this time where I'd gone with my sister and a friend to a MacDonalds, and I tried to slide into a booth, nearly dislodging it. I ended up sitting alone in the car. Like when I'm sitting on the rowing machine I have to really reach before I can grab the handles. Have you ever tried grabbing something while you have an inflated tube around you (I'm thinking of times when I've been in the pool - obviously very long ago). Well that's how it feels. A big one for me is transport - buses, trains, planes. I'm always worried about whether or not the handles can move, if someone is sitting next to me, an more… This is one of the reasons I've not been able to fly home for so long. A 15 hour flight would be excruciating, not to mention dangerous!!
These always bugs you and niggle in the back of your mind. But sadly you get used to it. Which is ridiculous! I have heard many times that our choices are always driven by Pain or Pleasure, generally in that particular moment. I've subconsciously CHOSEN to be fat, which makes you ask the question… If being overweight is the better choice out of 2 options, how bad can the 'pain' be that lurks behind it? Again it's probably subconscious. The only thing I can think of is an enormous fear of being hurt or judged, so the weight has come on as an excuse not to interact with people. This boils down to lack of self worth which robs you of your confidence.
I hope I haven't been too honest and scared y'all off! But I'm an open book anyway… Besides, this is no time for holding back. It's all or nothing! There are things that need fixing and by golly, this time I'm going to fix this and start LIVING!
After that rather serious entry, here's a video that illustrates my point VERY effectively, but I'm sure it'll lighten the mood! Enjoy x
#DwindlingDeeva
www.facebook.com/DwindlingDeevaDiary