As you most of you will know I had my first Body Combat session on Wednesday. It's a miracle I didn't punch myself in the face! I really enjoyed most of it but by the end of it I was really emotional because there were aspects of it that I just could not do. My mind wanted to but my body was having none of it! Talk about an internal battle! It's in moments like these that I fall back into my old habit of being incredibly hard on myself. I mean after all, I only have myself to blame for the state I'm in, right? Well after having my wobbly that night - and boy did I wobble!!! I even CHOSE to walk back home via the steep hill and unlit back way - I need to compose myself again and remind myself that I need to focus on the smaller goals, not the seemingly insurmountable larger ones. I may have looked and felt as graceful as a tap dancing Rhino, but the point is that I did it. I tried my best, and I'm doing it again next week. One day my reflection (seen too many of those this week!) will tell a different story.
Inside of me there is a spirit yearning to be free to experience life as an adventure instead of sitting like a rookie on the sidelines. I'm tired of being benched! My body has 'protected' me all these years from psychological attacks in the only way it knew how - by surrounding myself with a physical and emotional barrier. I now need to strengthen my own strength and resistance so that the barrier is no longer needed.
I now need to fight back… the Battle is on!
#DwindlingDeeva
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Inside of me there is a spirit yearning to be free to experience life as an adventure instead of sitting like a rookie on the sidelines. I'm tired of being benched! My body has 'protected' me all these years from psychological attacks in the only way it knew how - by surrounding myself with a physical and emotional barrier. I now need to strengthen my own strength and resistance so that the barrier is no longer needed.
I now need to fight back… the Battle is on!
#DwindlingDeeva
www.facebook.com/DwindlingDeevaDiary